Im Baaaack!

Finally. Im back in the mood for blogging. 

It has been a pretty tough few weeks for me, i wont go into too much detail

Firstly my mum, who has a serious illness, has been in hospital. Thankfully it was nothing too serious in the end and is now back out and on the mend.

Over the weekend it was the anniversary of my grandads death, i always find this a really tough time, even 11 years on. 

I have been feeling pretty ill over the weekend. I think its a combination of my Asthma and the crazy changes in the weather. One minute its really nice and sunny, on Thursday it was so warm. I thought summer had arrived early, but yesterday it was snowing again. Strange huh?

So today im feeling a little fragile and nursing a sore thoat and a snuffily toddler.

Now that she is happily napping away i thought id get out the laptop and catch up with the blogging.

I am back on my intense diet as of this morning. Im in 2 minds wether to get back on the soup diet or just have small protions and eat with everyone else. 

On the soup diet i lost some weight, but not as much as id liked. It does get pretty boring too. 

Im going to aim to do around 200 sit ups a day for a week, and then up it too 250, then 300 and so on untill im happy with the amount im doing and then maintain a steady number. At the moment i can do around 200 with out my stomach acheing like crazy. (FYI i dont do them all at once, i do 100 in the morning and 100 in the evening. It works for me) Im also going to be taking Amy out for walks now that the weather is looking much nicer. I have found a new little duck pond just a nice walk away from me so will be taking Amy there. 

As some of you may know i am coated in stretch marks. Some from my pregnancy and some from weight gain and weight loss. Lately, they have been getting me down so much and i am feeling very self consious, my confidence is rock bottom. I was tempted to speak to my doctor about them but i cant deal with the embarrasment of showing him. The only people who have seen them are Paul and my sister. The only people i can honsestly trust not to laugh at me. 

I have been doing some research on a new Johnsons Skin Perfecting Oil for Stretch Marks. It retails between £9.99 and £14.99. I have tried Bio-Oil and Palmers Stretch Mark Cream and found it made my skin red and itchy, i think i may have been allergic. So i am willing to try this product. It advertises that you can see visible results in just 4 weeks. I will do anything to see visible results in 4 weeks. I will be doing a weekly post on this if i ever find the damn product. 

I also have a few reviews for you and will be doing some OOTDs

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I need some motivation! - Weight Loss.

I have seen so many of these types of blogs about everywhere lately. 

I have one over on my Tumblr account, it is password protected as there are some slightly horrific images of me on there. If you wish to have a look just ask me for the password.

Last year i started a majour diet, i ate really well, did a ton of exercise and i lost no weight. 

I went to the doctors because i found out i might have had a tyroid problem. Tests were done and it came back i didnt. However, my doctor weighed me, and compared it against what i was before i fell pregnant and all my regular check ups iv had over the past years. He found it a bit abnormal about my weigh, i have always had an 'issue' with it, it has always jumped up and down, but this time it never jumped down. 

He also found that i had a dangeroudly low iron count so immediatly started me on iron tablets. (i hated them).

The reason for me not being able to lose any weight even though i was dieting so so much, was a combination of low iron and the contraception i was on. I was feeling so hungry, eating and then feeling hungry again. There were times where i would be doubled over with hunger pains after eating a full meal. 

My body didnt seem to recognise food in my system. I dont know why this is, but as soon as i changed my contraception from mycrogynon30 to the mini pill and with the added iron tablets in instantly felt better and dropped almost 2stone. 

Now, i need to get back on that diet and drop another 2stone. I just dont have the motivation.  I look at my body and see slight changes and it makes me feel good about myself and i instantly do sit ups to add to the improvements, but i never get into a strict routine. 

I all still eat really healthy, but I have my moments (too many moments) where i just binge eat. 

I need to stop this if i want to look and feel comfortable for the summer.

Another majour body issue i have is my stretch marks. Im not that bothered with the ones on my tummy anymore, im getting over them. Its the big, purple ones on the backs of my legs i despise. I never get my legs out for anyone, not even the boyfriend!! They are hideous. I need to find a cure for these. I know i will never get rid of them, i just need to get them so shrink and fade a little and i will be so much happier. 

I have been battling with stretch marks since i hit puberty, so im pretty used to them.